What I Feel vs. What I Know

I’ve been reading Jamie Tworkowski’s, founder of To Write Love on Her Arms, book called If You Feel Too Much. And I’ve been taking my time with it. Every page I read, I feel like I need to savor it because there are gorgeous profound truths in the pages of this book. Things that Jamie went through that speak to my heart, especially as I go through this transition. And so it’s taking me months to read a book that would normally take days. But I don’t want to rush the words.
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And in one of the chapters Jamie pits What He Feels against What He Knows. So the title of this blog post is pilfered from his book. Borrowed, really. So, thank you Jamie! Thank you for your words. For the difficult things you experienced so God would give you the words that you are now giving to me.

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Here’s What I Feel versus What I Know at any given moment in any given day…

I feel sad. I know that it’s temporary.

I feel happy. I know that’s temporary too.

I feel like I’m bad at everything. I know that I’m not.

I feel like I don’t have a whole lot to offer this world. I know that I do.

I feel fat. I know that I’m not and that there are people who actually struggle with obesity or eating disorders and I am not one of those people. So I know that my insecurities stem from a place that is not worth validating.

I feel like I’m not enough. I know that I am just enough or else there would be a whole lot more of me to go around and there isn’t. So I must be enough.

I feel like I’ll never fall in love. Or worse…no one will ever be able to fall in love with me. I know that I am the only thing standing in the way of that happening.

I feel like God made a mistake when he mixed the ingredients that make up my brain and the very essence of who I am. I know that He didn’t, because God doesn’t make mistakes and for some beautiful, unknown reason He chose to make me.

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What we feel and what we know are constantly at war. We are not meant to move with the emotions that come and go. Ebbing and flowing like the tides on the shore. They are as inconstant as the wind. And in Florida, the only thing you can count on is that the wind is there, but never which way it will be blowing,

We are meant to move with the knowledge and discernment that only Christ can offer. Even when we don’t feel Him there…He is. Even when we don’t feel strong…we are. Even if we think we can’t carry on…we will.

If we allow what we feel to dictate our actions we will always be ruled by the flaky, unpredictable self. And God asks…no He demands more from us.

So I feel like I don’t know what’s coming next. But I know that if I’m listening, I won’t need to.
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“TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS IS A NON-PROFIT MOVEMENT DEDICATED TO PRESENTING HOPE AND FINDING HELP FOR PEOPLE STRUGGLING WITH DEPRESSION, ADDICTION, SELF-INJURY, AND SUICIDE. TWLOHA EXISTS TO ENCOURAGE, INFORM, INSPIRE, AND ALSO TO INVEST DIRECTLY INTO TREATMENT AND RECOVERY.”

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Let’s Start Talking About It

Robin Williams

Photo : © Matt Sayles

Today the world lost a wonderful and talented actor to a horrible disease (if the reports that are coming in are true.) And it has effected me more than I thought it would. The sad truth is that you can never perceive the internal struggles a person goes through. We saw his humor and his laughter and we thought everything was fine. We loved his movies and television shows. I grew up watching him in so many things like Aladdin, Hook, Dead Poet’s Society, Mrs. Doubtfire and so many more. My parent’s generation watched him in Mork and Mindy.

Depression is a slow and silent demon. It whispers in your ear and tells you very convincing lies about yourself. You’re not good enough. You can’t do it anymore. You have no worth. I have friends who have struggled with this disease. I’ve had periods in my life when I have struggled with it myself.

This is a disease that we don’t talk about. We, as a culture, expect people to have it all together and when they don’t, we judge them. We have to empower people to seek help for not only the detectable diseases like cancer or the common diseases like the flu.

Counseling and therapy… these are the medicines we need to embrace. And it has to be okay to seek these forms of “medication.” Until they are no longer judged, until the stigma is erased then tragedies like this will keep happening. And we will have let down those who are suffering and need us to understand!

 

If you are struggling with depression or know someone who is, please seek help!!! Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255. Head to your local church and ask for help. Call a friend… email me. Do what you need to be ok!!!

Non-profits like To Write Love On Her Arms are trying to change the way we look at this disease. Support them and their efforts.