Dear Inspiration,

Dear inspiration,

Dear spark of imagination,

Dear intense, unfailing dedication to sharing my inner conflagration,

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Where have you gone today? Correction, where have you been for a while now? I remember the days when we would sit in Central Park, me with a pen and paper, you swarming through my whole being, igniting the cobwebs in my mind and turning every silken thread into a tapestry of thoughts. These days my thoughts feel less substantial. My writing less inspired. My blog sadly missing you and your flare for the dramatic honesty.

Something was lost between New York, California and Florida. Perhaps you lost track of me in my travels. I tend not to stay in one place for long, if I can help it. The fault is yours, for I travel to experience more of you. But lately when I sit down to write, what comes out is a cacophony of words that have no cohesion. A maelstrom of thoughts with no clear conclusion. Where have you gone, my inspiration? Did I leave you in New York? I thought I felt your breath on my neck when we went to California. Every sunset we saw together would inspire poetry. I wasn’t seeing those sunsets alone was I?
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I know, I know…sometimes you visit me in the wee hours of the morning, when I’m still drunk on dreams. But what you leave behind, I cannot seem to grasp. The mere whisper of magic…the faint scent of the divine. I wish I could lasso your power and harness your energy. I wish I could keep you in a bottle and pour you on when I need you most.

But you are not to be caught in my fisher’s net. You, imagination…you are fierce and wild and will not be tamed by a mere mortal. Even one who thinks as highly of you as I do. Even one who puts a store of dreams in the mention of your name. Even I don’t deserve to keep you locked up, like a tiger in a zoo. Locked up and caged where you do not belong.

There are others who call upon your influence. Others who need you as much as I do. And I know you have to answer their siren call, for their call is no more important than mine. You have to be in so many places at once. God made it so. The way He made it so Santa Claus could travel through the night and need no rest till his work is done. You, too, are undaunted by the call of your duty to the dreamers of the world.

Galaxies are created in your name. Brand new worlds uncharted by human cartographers are discovered. Characters spring to life, upright and fully functioning in the minds of the creators, your offspring. Those who write and draw and sing and dream. Those who make empowered speeches that inspire others to write and draw and sing and dream. This is the evidence of your majestic influence. The bright colors splashed upon our world to brighten dull days and give bold words to mundane moments. You, the paintbrush of God himself, are hard at work in someone else today.

Don’t forget to return to me. Don’t forget your faithful friend. I await your return with eager anticipation. My pen still finds the paper in your absence. My voice is not gone. I use the remnants of what you left behind when last we were together and I will write and draw and sing and dream until the day you come back to me.

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I Promise, I’ll Keep Trying

Well, there goes all that hard work and those healthy initiatives from a few months back. Remember that? Remember when I thought I’d figured out the “secrets” to staying healthy and spoke like I knew something…anything about it.

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Look at me up there, all pompous and motivated and successful at losing weight. And sure, it doesn’t mean that the things I said weren’t true. The evidence is there. I really did lose that weight. I really was the healthiest I’d ever been. But as with most things…it was temporary. And as with other things… it takes daily maintenance and expended energy.

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Enter moving. And stress. And boys. And family. And humidity. And travel. And Chick-fil-A. Darn you, Chick-fil-A. There weren’t any of you in New York when I was there, so there was no temptation to have you for breakfast, lunch and dinner. And I had blissfully forgotten how good you are! And ps…why is your lemonade so delicious? Is there crack in it? I sorta think there might be crack in it!! Don’t even get me started on you, waffle fries!!

I wish we didn’t need food for survival. Or better still, I wish all food tasted like a health supplement. You don’t want to take it, but you know it will be good for you. Sort of like how I imagine the food in the Matrix tastes. You know, once someone gets unplugged…that goopy, oatmeal looking stuff…the “bowls of snot?”  Yeah. That’s the stuff. Necessary for survival, but you don’t see anyone getting gluttonous with it.

God bless my parents. They did the best they could. And we didn’t have a lot of money growing up, so we lived on a tasty array of fast foods and starches like macaroni and cheese, spaghetti (my mom makes the very best spaghetti!!) Taco Bell, McDonalds, Wendy’s, etc, etc, carbs, etc, etc, sugars, etc, etc fats! It’s not their fault. And I’d don’t blame them. That junk is delicious. Plus, it’s how you did things back then especially if you didn’t have a lot of money.

Whole Foods was a blip in someone’s mind space and high fructose corn syrup is what made the world go around. Especially in small towns in the south. It was just the way of the world.

All that to say that I still have a problem with food. I don’t know when to say no sometimes. And dear Lord, help me! I cannot resist Publix chocolate chip cookies. Mainly because they too must be laced with crack!!

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I hate to keep talking about the battles of my life. Because I have a lot of harvest moments in there. The fact that I can eat at all and have a home and a job and a family and a life. There are so many times of peace and prosperity in my own little corner, in my own little world. But it’s the battles that really make me feel a part of the human race.

So, I guess it’s time to reinvent my health… again. For the thousandth time. Being in California for the next 2 months is sure gonna be a good kick start!! And I can’t promise that I won’t be here again in 6 months lamenting the weight that I wish would permanently go away. In fact, I should probably go ahead and warn you that I’ll be here again, maybe tomorrow, maybe in a year. But my hope is that if I tell you lovely people about it, maybe one of these days it will stick. Up there in the cockles of my dusty brain. And I’ll be free from the chains that keep me running to food for comforts instead of to what I should be running to. I promise you, I will keep trying!!

Signed,

a nerd in progress…

30 Days of Nerdy Hair – Day 21

Day 21 – Cher from Clueless

Clueless is one of those quintessential movies from the 90’s that defined a generation of teenagers. This modern adaptation of Jane Austen’s Emma, is both adorable and funny. Alicia Silverstone’s character, Cher manages to be both ditzy and intensely caring at the same time (when she wants to be.) When she falls totally, butt-crazy in love with her ex-step-brother, Josh… she not only ends up winning his heart, but she wins ours as well!!

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I just got a hair cut and color, so I am completely ready to rock this California princess look!

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As If!!

It’s HERE!!!!

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The new teaser trailer just landed!! And it is amazing. Behold! And I defy you to not be emotional while watching! I’m in tears right now!!!

The remnants of a crashed Star Destroyer. The narration from Mark Hamill is chilling and heart-wrenching. Vader’s charred mask, Leia getting a lightsaber. And of course that one and only scruffy-looking nerf herder, Han Solo.

Harrison isn’t at Celebration this weekend as he is still healing from his plane crash. But the rest of the cast showed up in full Force (pun intended) and with smiles and tears alike! It’s gonna be a weekend to remember, even for those of us who aren’t in attendance.

I cannot contain my excitement and must now go watch it on repeat till I have every frame memorized!! TTYL

Dreaming of SW Celebration

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Sadly I am not in Anaheim, California right this very minute. I am not soaking up the California sun and preparing for an epic weekend of Star Wars culture. That is what I’m not doing.

What I am doing is dreaming of the panels I’ll be missing. And reading my Star Wars EU novels and watching Star Wars on digital platforms. Anything to be connected to the massive event that I am sadly not partaking in,

I have been to Star Wars Celebrations of yesteryear and I have to tell you… it’s an amazing experience. Especially for the fanatics of the world (that includes your favorite nerdy girl!) Luckily there are some new ways to stay in touch with SW Celebrations as the weekend progresses and the geeks keep on geeking out.

In just under an hour, JJ Abrams and Kathleen Kennedy will be taking the main Celebration Stage to kickoff the weekend and talk about… well, you know what they’re talking about. A little movie coming out in December. An underground indie if ever there was one.

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Only the biggest movies of the year (Sorry, Avengers. I love you, but step aside for the King!) Who knows what untold treasure trove of information they will have to share. Luckily for those of us who can’t be there, Verizon and StarWars.com are bringing us the action, live. Click Here for more info!! 

Not only that, but there are the ever present social media platforms that make it easy to follow along.

Twitter: @SW_Celebration

Facebook: Star Wars Celebration

Instagram: @starwarscelebration

You Tube: Star Wars Celebration

These are, of course, the best way to stay connected to all the action from a galaxy far, far away. And when it comes to Star Wars, you never want to miss any of the action. It’s basically the best part!!!

If you are at the Con, make sure to keep us informed and shout it out if you are so inclined. I’ll be bringing you the panels I wish I was attending this weekend. As well as any good stuff coming out of the Con!! (of which there will be plenty!)

So may the Force be with you, my lovely nerds!! Enjoy this little look at Star Wars Celebrations of yesteryear!!

Ready to rule!

Thursday’s Nerd on the Scene

Post by Mels Lien

The first day of Nerd HQ is always the greatest. Everyone’s still exhausted and jet lagged, but they still manage to muster up the energy to attend panels and stand in a forever-long merch line.

This year’s opening day was particularly exciting: with a multitude of panels, including ‘Into the Storm’, ‘The Giver’, and ‘The Last Ship’, hosted by Zachary Levi himself, raising over $6,000 per session and photo ops bringing in an additional $14k, Nerd HQ has started off with a proverbial bang.

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Lovely volunteers at Nerd HQ and the ladies of Operation Smile

 

Of course, everyone’s favorite Nerd Party on Thursday evening remained a Fan favorite. With crowds of geeks and geek culture connoisseurs cramming into an already full dance floor and photo booth lines on constant rotation, the party lasted well into the morning hours and attracted high profile guests such as Zachary Quinto and Krysta Rodriguez. Friday will see additional appearances by Levi, Adam Baldwin, Yvonne Strahovski and Evangeline Lilly.

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 All Photos courtesy of Mels Lien and Nerd HQ

If you are in San Diego for Comic Con this weekend, please make sure to head to Petco Park for Nerd HQ, you won’t be sorry!!! Support The Nerd Machine and Operation Smile with your presence and if you feel so inclined, with your money as well. They are doing wonderful things. For more from Mels Lien, follow her on Twitter @MelsLien.