What I Feel vs. What I Know

I’ve been reading Jamie Tworkowski’s, founder of To Write Love on Her Arms, book called If You Feel Too Much. And I’ve been taking my time with it. Every page I read, I feel like I need to savor it because there are gorgeous profound truths in the pages of this book. Things that Jamie went through that speak to my heart, especially as I go through this transition. And so it’s taking me months to read a book that would normally take days. But I don’t want to rush the words.
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And in one of the chapters Jamie pits What He Feels against What He Knows. So the title of this blog post is pilfered from his book. Borrowed, really. So, thank you Jamie! Thank you for your words. For the difficult things you experienced so God would give you the words that you are now giving to me.

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Here’s What I Feel versus What I Know at any given moment in any given day…

I feel sad. I know that it’s temporary.

I feel happy. I know that’s temporary too.

I feel like I’m bad at everything. I know that I’m not.

I feel like I don’t have a whole lot to offer this world. I know that I do.

I feel fat. I know that I’m not and that there are people who actually struggle with obesity or eating disorders and I am not one of those people. So I know that my insecurities stem from a place that is not worth validating.

I feel like I’m not enough. I know that I am just enough or else there would be a whole lot more of me to go around and there isn’t. So I must be enough.

I feel like I’ll never fall in love. Or worse…no one will ever be able to fall in love with me. I know that I am the only thing standing in the way of that happening.

I feel like God made a mistake when he mixed the ingredients that make up my brain and the very essence of who I am. I know that He didn’t, because God doesn’t make mistakes and for some beautiful, unknown reason He chose to make me.

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What we feel and what we know are constantly at war. We are not meant to move with the emotions that come and go. Ebbing and flowing like the tides on the shore. They are as inconstant as the wind. And in Florida, the only thing you can count on is that the wind is there, but never which way it will be blowing,

We are meant to move with the knowledge and discernment that only Christ can offer. Even when we don’t feel Him there…He is. Even when we don’t feel strong…we are. Even if we think we can’t carry on…we will.

If we allow what we feel to dictate our actions we will always be ruled by the flaky, unpredictable self. And God asks…no He demands more from us.

So I feel like I don’t know what’s coming next. But I know that if I’m listening, I won’t need to.
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30 Days of Nerdy Hair – Day 22

Day 22: Susan Pevensie from The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe

The Chronicles of Narnia was one of my favorite book series when I was growing, and has remained so. The story of Peter, Susan, Edmund and Lucy Pevensie: the everyday British children that would become the kings and queens of the mythical, far off land of Narnia. It was such a magical story. And I still check the closets to see if I can find that magical land. (I haven’t yet, but hope is still alive!)

The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe was the 2nd book in the series, but the first movie that was made. And it was such a beautiful adaptation. Sadly the series wouldn’t make it past The Voyage of the Dawn Treader. Which is a real shame because the stories, written by Clive Staples Lewis are richly and beautifully written.

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Aslan bestows the title of Queen Susan, the brave upon plain ole Susan Pevensie when she is crowned a queen of Narnia. Don’t worry, if you don’t have a spare crown lying around, like I do, you can easily just substitute it for a sparkly headband of some kind.

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“Once a king or queen of Narnia, always a king or queen of Narnia!”

NITC Book Club: Star Wars Edition

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This week I’m reading the first book in The Jedi Academy Trilogy by Kevin J. Anderson, Jedi Search.

Don’t forget (as if you could) none of these are official canon anymore. So the events in these books are mere Legends. Simply good stories that may or may not have happened. I like to think of them as an alternate universe.

In Jedi Search we see the New Republic desperately trying to create alliances across the galaxy and bring new planets into their governmental system. Han and Chewie are sent on a diplomatic mission to Kessel (yes that is the very same Kessel that Han references in A New Hope) where they run into an old smuggling associate, one who has a grudge against Solo. Their mission goes awry and they are forced to work down in the dark spice mines of Kessel.

 Luke is on a mission to seek out new Jedi to teach about the ways of the Force while also trying to advance Leia’s force training. Jaina and Jacen Solo have returned from their seclusion as sassy 2 year old children who barely know their parents and are finding out their own force sensitivity.

Meanwhile, a new threat emerges. One that could turn the tide in the fight against the remnants of the Empire. A threat set into motion 10 years before by the deceased Grand Moff Tarkin himself.

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May the Force be with you…always!

NITC Book Club: Star Wars Edition

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This week I’m finishing up the Thrawn Trilogy with Timothy Zahn’s The Last Command.

As you know, I’m not one to spoil so I’m not gonna give anything away for those who haven’t read this yet. So here’s what I will tell ya!

Timothy Zahn is a master of story telling and he keeps, so faithfully, to the spirit of the original trilogy that thinking about how this story is now just a “Legend” and not true canon, makes me a little sad. Mara Jade is a seminal character to any fan of the Expanded Universe. And if there’s one character that should make the transfer to the new stuff, it should 100% be her… you hear that Disney!!! Give us Mara Jade.

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Still have a lot of reading left to do before the Journey to The Force Awakens officially begins in Sept.

NITC Book Club: Star Wars Edition

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There are only 7 months to go till Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens will be hitting theaters and changing our world as we know it. Which mean I only have 7 months for my Star Wars Book Club Challenge. Tall order, but I am determined to get through as many of them as I physically can.

Don’t forget to join me… if you feel up to the challenge! This week I’d reading the second book in Timothy Zahn’s Thrawn Trilogy, Dark Force Rising.

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Tension is rising as Princess Leia attempts to confront a tribe of Noghri who have been made slaves by the Empire to track and kill her.

Dark Jedi, Joruus C’boath is on a mission to bring Leia, her force sensitive, unborn twins and Luke to him to teach the dark side of the Force.

And Han and Lando embark on a mission of their own to find out who has been double crossing the New Republic and trying to overthrow Admiral Ackbar and Mon Monthma’s leadership.

NITC Book Club: Star Wars Edition

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I am embarking on a rather large undertaking. For those super fans out there, you know what I mean when I say Expanded Universe. And you also know that the entire library of books that you previously believed to be canon has been relegated to Star Wars Legends. Meaning, they no longer exist in the regular Star Wars Universe. To some most, this is a big, fat disappointment because that’s all we’ve known. Mara Jade, Jaina and Jacen, Ben, little Anakin, Grand Admiral Thrawn, the death of Chewie. These are all stories that we are aware of and believe to be apart of a grander universe that we know and love.

But fans, it doesn’t have to be a bad thing. I like to believe that the novels are some sort of alternate universe. Like they could still all be true somehow. Making them Legends doesn’t diminish the excellent quality of writing and story telling. It just allows for a whole new onslaught of tales to delve into.

So here’s my mission. Between now and December I am going to plow through as much of the Expanded Universe: Legends as I can, starting with Timothy Zahn’s Thrawn Trilogy and hopefully making it all the way to the end which would be Crucible by Troy Denning. That’s 69 books in all. I’ve definitely got my work cut out for me. (Especially since I’m not the fastest reader.)

After December, I will be devouring every single new canon book, comic, etc as it becomes available. I invite you to join me with the hashtag #NITCBookClubSW Let me know what you’re reading, if you like it and how you feel about Legends vs new canon. We’re all in this together, Star Wars nerds.

Heir to the Empire

by Timothy Zahn

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I read this book years and years ago. And I don’t know how this happened, but I forgot how amazing it is. Timothy Zahn was already an amazing sci-fi writer before he was unleashed on the Star Wars Universe. And he is made all the better by writing for these beloved characters in a galaxy far, far away!

All the characters that we love are back in this action packed story set in the time of the New Republic. Obviously Vader is the biggest and bestest of the bad, but if there is someone who is a decent predecessor to his pre-redemption evil intentions, it would be Grand Admiral Thrawn. The last of the Grand Admirals. Who takes it upon himself to rebuild the Empire and fight the New Republic that has been trying to rebuild since the Return of the Jedi.

Leia Organa Solo is pregnant with twins and still managing to go on diplomatic missions to expand the reach of the New Republic. Luke is being tracked by a mysterious woman who is hell bent on seeking revenge. Lando is back. Han is back. Chewie is back!! It’s everything you love about Star Wars. And Zahn’s voice fits in so perfectly with my predetermined ideas of the SWU.

A seriously great addition to the Star Wars Universe and an excellent place to start if you are thinking of joining my Nerd in the City Book Club Challenge. 69 books between now and December. Join me and together we can…. read a lot of books!

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 May the Force be with you… always!

Dreaming of SW Celebration

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Sadly I am not in Anaheim, California right this very minute. I am not soaking up the California sun and preparing for an epic weekend of Star Wars culture. That is what I’m not doing.

What I am doing is dreaming of the panels I’ll be missing. And reading my Star Wars EU novels and watching Star Wars on digital platforms. Anything to be connected to the massive event that I am sadly not partaking in,

I have been to Star Wars Celebrations of yesteryear and I have to tell you… it’s an amazing experience. Especially for the fanatics of the world (that includes your favorite nerdy girl!) Luckily there are some new ways to stay in touch with SW Celebrations as the weekend progresses and the geeks keep on geeking out.

In just under an hour, JJ Abrams and Kathleen Kennedy will be taking the main Celebration Stage to kickoff the weekend and talk about… well, you know what they’re talking about. A little movie coming out in December. An underground indie if ever there was one.

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Only the biggest movies of the year (Sorry, Avengers. I love you, but step aside for the King!) Who knows what untold treasure trove of information they will have to share. Luckily for those of us who can’t be there, Verizon and StarWars.com are bringing us the action, live. Click Here for more info!! 

Not only that, but there are the ever present social media platforms that make it easy to follow along.

Twitter: @SW_Celebration

Facebook: Star Wars Celebration

Instagram: @starwarscelebration

You Tube: Star Wars Celebration

These are, of course, the best way to stay connected to all the action from a galaxy far, far away. And when it comes to Star Wars, you never want to miss any of the action. It’s basically the best part!!!

If you are at the Con, make sure to keep us informed and shout it out if you are so inclined. I’ll be bringing you the panels I wish I was attending this weekend. As well as any good stuff coming out of the Con!! (of which there will be plenty!)

So may the Force be with you, my lovely nerds!! Enjoy this little look at Star Wars Celebrations of yesteryear!!

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5 Fandom Friday

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My Favorite Conventions

Today’s 5 Fandom Friday topic is the 5 conventions you’ve been to or wish to attend. The very first convention I ever attended was Star Wars Celebration. I took my brother for his birthday and it opened a whole new world for me. I’d never been to a con before that. I had no idea what to expect. No idea what was about to happen. I got bit by the convention bug…hard! So here’s my list.

#1 – Star Wars Celebration

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As I said, Celebration is the first convention I ever attended. So it holds a very special place in my heart! Plus it’s an entire con devoted to that galaxy far, far away. My favorite of the galaxies! Click Here for more information.

#2 – New York Comic Con

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New York Comic Con is a must for nerds of all persuasions! It has something for everyone. And this year it even eclipsed San Diego Comic Con’s staggering attendance. There are panels about everything you could ever want to know about. Sometimes I go with friends, sometimes I go along, and I always have a blast! Click Here for more information.

#3 – Nerd HQ

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Nerd HQ was born out of Zachary Levi’s desire to bring a more personalized experience to the fans. And to raise money for Operation Smile at the same time. I haven’t heard if it’s coming back for a 5th year this year, but I sure hope it is. Because it’s an amazing event with a very worthy cause! Click Here for more information.

#4 – Book Con

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Last year was the very first year of Book Con and it was amazing. An entire convention dedicated to books and reading!. Why didn’t we think of this earlier. If you have a chance to attend this year… do it! Click Here for more information.

#5 – Leaky/ Geeky Con

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What once was Leaky Con, a convention born out of a deep, abiding love for all things Harry Potter, is now Geeky Con. A convention that celebrates all manner of geekdom! I can’t wait to see how it will change. Click Here for more information.

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A little blast from conventions past.

Hopefully I’ll be able to make it to a whole bunch more this year. I have a couple things brewing for 2015 and I can’t wait to share them with you. In the meantime, see you at the cons!

Nerd in the City Book Club

Over-Dressed: The Shockingly High Cost of Cheap Fashion

by Elizabeth L. Cline

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October is fair fashion month and I had the opportunity to attend a panel moderated by author Elizabeth Cline at the TrimLab a couple week’s ago. Which then prompted me to pick up her book.

About 6 months ago I was sent down the road to fair fashion, what it’s all about and what it means for my life. If I wasn’t already ignited to change my shopping habits, this book would have done the trick! I had cut out Forever 21 because their production practices are very questionable, but I was still holding onto H&M. The lesser of two evils, right? Well after reading this book, I can’t really continue to shop there. And have made the commitment not to shop at any fast fashion chains. I also have committed to having no fast fashion in my web series, So…This Happened, as of Jan. 20th. (We filmed a few episodes before this conviction.)

What I loved about Over-Dressed is that it delves deep into the problems our country currently faces with production, overspending, high volume of waste and the general mindset that fashion is disposable. The amount of clothing that people purchase and throw away is at an all time high. And big, fast-fashion companies like H&M, Forever 21 and Zara are rendering small boutique designers virtually extinct. When you are able to get a “fashionable” top for $5 at Forever 21, why would you pay $150 for something from an independent zer0 waste designer like Tabii Just or Daniel Silverstein? Quality has turned from “well made” to “good enough.”

Cline talks a lot about her own experience with fast fashion and while reading her story, it felt like it could have been my story. When Cline walked out of an “Kmart with 7 pairs of canvas flats,” that was the moment she started her wake up call. The journey she goes on will enlighten you to what is happening in our world right now and really make you think about how you shop!

Definitely give this book a read and allow it to challenge the way you think about fashion and shopping. Do you know what your wearing? Who made it? It’s quality? These are the kind of questions Elizabeth dared to ask herself and will ask you if you let her.

Get it here.